i'm back.

i thought it was time to - my life has calmed down a bit, things have gotten better for now.

doesn't mean i haven't been doing art. that's why i'm back.

i've spent the last month or so at Sinai Hospital as an intern - it's interesting to see what goes on in there, but the truth is most of the things people go into the emergency room for are completely ridiculous.

i have about a week or two left of Sinai days left. to be completely honest, i'd rather quit school and intern there more and start college.

i'm not looking forward to school and the cold, harsh winters. they're exactly the same.

the only thing that will change it is the next spring and summer. it seems that everything that happens in winter comes directly from hell.

hell is colder than we imagine, if there is a heaven and a hell. they're only beliefs - not solid truth. we will only know after we die.

anyway, i've been photographing a lot of abandoned places and made friends with some cops - it's basically impossible to get onto the premises if you don't. i learned a lot of history about the places, which we're both insane asylums. Rosewood Center which is notorious for the abuse done there, and Spring Grove State Hospital, which is the second oldest insane asylum still running in the US, but their older building was abandoned.

but - i have photographs from there and other places, which will be posted.

either than that, my life has been a lot better than it really has ever been - besides from the confusion and lies from this one asshole.

but! i'm gonna go get my shit posted - i owe it to my friend aaron and also meg

-Rae

i'm out of here for awhile.

i'll be back who knows when, but im still doing art.

and i'm going to intern at Sinai Hospital

and i have people that mean a lot to me

and a lot more

but ive found a new meaning to life and shit is making a lot more sense lately.

fuck all of the shitty people and all the things ive done in the past, im done with it

i'm out.

Alright.

i havent had internet in...over a week i think.

i've been in florida. and i'm still in florida. i just havent had internet till now since the hotel was extremely gay when it came to internet services and it was like...$7.00 an hour i think, down at the internet cafe

...i think i probably missed a lot while i was gone. and damn, that break was good. and i dont wanna go back to fucking maryland back to that miserable mess and have to go deal with that.

im moving to either florida or california now.

ANYWAY.

breakdown of what happened...

saturday - arrived in florida. it was hot as HELL. we're talkin like 90 degree weather. it was awesome.

arrived at hotel. apparently hotel property was so big, you could drive around and get lost on it. they had a fucking water park on the property!

sunday - went to seaworld for an hour or two...didnt do too much at that time.

monday - went to animal kingdom with molly - that place is huge! and everest roller coaster is bad ass. its awesome going backwards through a mountain thats pitch black.

tuesday - epcot. temperature must have dropped to sixty, and it was windy as hell. and epcot wasnt even that great. honestly. best thing there was this bigass turkey leg we got. oh, and italy.

wednesday - stayed back at the hotel with molly, we went to this waterpark at the hotel and got extremely lost. and....held an alligator! [got a picture of that]

thursday - went back to seaworld, and waited 45 mins to get on the Kraken...thing must have had 8 loops and multiple corkscrews...it was insane. completely worth it.

friday - well, im here right now.

orlando airport.

its loud, and i really am NEVER HAVING KIDS. i've dealt with enough kids this trip.

and i have more pics on my cam than i can ever possibly post. i gotta go through those later and put some on here...

anyway, i hear a screaming kid in back of me. i think its time for me to leave.

p.s. mom discovered the magic of a GPS. and now, shes more willing to go more places in maryland and anywhere else and is getting one.

just....give me that butcher knife now, please?

...im gonna go expel energy by walking around the airport. pray that i get lost and don't make my flight and mom does.

So i guess i'm back after a long period of absense. it feels as if its been years almost but its only been a few weeks or so, i think.

i dont feel like making this a rant journal or saying anything else, so all i'm gonna say is shit has hit the fan.

anyway im leaving saturday for florida, and i wont be back till the saturday after that. and i'll be having to get surgery the week after that.

i'm gonna go do an internship too at Sinai Hospital this summer, so that'll give me more experience with anything medical, since i'll be in the ICU. i've been considering being a doctor, but i dont know if thats really what im going to do.

i'm gonna go write some things down. and try and come up with song lyrics. i want to write more songs.

i may post more things on here soon. who knows.

I realized the fact that I haven't posted a new journal since last year, so i guess it's time to do that, lol, i've been posting the occasional huge batches of pictures time to time, and haven't really been doing much art. but since i found out the fact that GIMP is sweet for doing graphics - and not like shitty Paint Shop Pro - i've gone graphic design crazy tonight. and i must have done over seven good pieces of art tonight.

i'm waiting to get more together to post them all.

so whats new...

-I'm more in love than i ever have been in my life. and it's fucking amazing. and im not in one of those fucked up relationships either where there's flaws and always fighting and shit. it's great. i love you, Grayson.

-I've gotten a new camera - another sony cybershot, but it's more professional and takes much better pics than my last one

-i'm planning to go through my three memory cards sometime this week or something to see what i have and is worth posting; all in all i have around 1,700 pictures on them combined.

-i got my braces off, last month or so. and its a lot better.

-MY DESKTOP COMPUTER IS BRICKED.

-Ubuntu Linux fucking owns OS X and Windows. its a lot fucking faster, no virus worries, and you can customize the shit out of it. [thank you again Grayson. lol]

-I dont have sound on my laptop at the moment. i need to fix that.

-lauren, you owe me that story!

-i passed spanish with a 60.3 O_O

-i should be working on an art project right now, but i'm not, because i don't really have an idea.

-if anyone wants art of any sort - graphics, hand drawn, anything - ask me [meg, i owe you the Akatsuki, i know]

-i need to start doing more art...

and i'm tired as shit, and i think everyones pretty much asleep, so i'm out.